do u ever?

do you ever wake up one day just totally feeling confused and out of whack? not sure of where you belong or why you're here.

like...even though it's sunshiny all around, there seems to hover a dark and foreboding gray cloud of despair...just lurking and waiting to pounce when you are at your weakest. just waiting for the right time to strike.....then bam!!

if you know the feeling....i felt like this on friday, yesterday. i just couldn't shake it. the world around me went on as normal, yet in my immediate surroundings, above me, below me, touching my sides...i could feel the pressure....heavy and burdensome, as though its entire purpose and will was to bring me down, break my spirit....lol...like the whole universe was out to get me...haha

do you ever have days like that?

i don't know what brought it on...i don't really know why i felt so blue, but i couldn't seem to shake the feeling. i mean, other than feeling blue emotionally, i felt fine. most days, i'm determined to keep a positive outlook and do my best to be cheerful and optimistic, but this was one of those days that just overwhelmed me....it threw me completely off balance. i didn't understand my own emotions and why i was feeling them....is that strange or what?.....maybe i'm normal, and it was just one of those days that we all have from time to time.

no matter, i don't like having them, and i hope days like that never return. i don't know about you, but i like when the sun shines on me and all around me.